The Replacements

傍晚結束了繁重無聊的統計學考試，漫步到社團想跟人聊聊。一時興起帶了Let it be去放，順便跟學弟妹吹噓他們有多偉大。有個學妹跟我開口借了，我當然不好意思不借雖然心中略有不甘）。於是，拖著沈重的步伐搭公車去西區想買嘻低填補我的空虛。

奇怪，只有在心情不好的情況下才聽他們的音樂，每張專輯裡的快歌總能使我的不滿得到宣洩；慢歌則能使我與他們共同沈浸在哀愁而不可自拔。在等車時有首歌的旋律突然進佔我心：

Anadrogynous

Here come Dick, he's wearing a skirt
Here comes Jane, y'know she's sporting a chain
Same hair, revolution
Same build, evolution
Tomorrow who's gonna fuss

And they love each other so
Androgynous
Closer than you know, love each other so
Androgynous

Don't get him wrong and don't get him mad
He might be a father, but he sure ain't a dad
And she don't need advice that he send to her
She's happy with the way she looks
She's happy with her gender

Mirror image, see no damage
See no evil at all
Kewpie dolls and urine stalls
They'll be laughed at
The way you're laughed at now

Now, something meets Boy, and something meets Girl
They both look the same
They're overjoyed in this world
Same hair, revolution
Unisex, evolution
Tomorrow who's gonna fuss
And tomorrow Dick is wearing pants
And tomorrow Janie's wearing a dress
Future outcasts and they don't last
And today, the people dress the way that they please
The way they tried to do in the last centuries


這是收錄於1984年專輯Let it be中的"Anadrogynous"。歌詞乍看下只是兩個性別錯亂的傢伙生活在都市底層的故事，有些嘲諷、又有些悲愁。Paul Westerburg帶點不成熟而又滄桑的迷人嗓音配合簡單的鋼琴伴奏，使得全曲洋溢著慢板歌獨有的憂傷與快版歌輕快的節奏融合一處，好不迷人。想想這張專輯已經有了描寫做愛的必聽經典"Unsatisfied"、排行曲式的"Sixteen blue"、活潑生動的"I will dare"、慷慨激昂"Answering machine"、標準叛客的"We're comming out".........如此多的好歌，再多一首能打動心弦的小品品"Anadrogynous"，為何還借人呢？心中如此自責著。

晚上八時的西門人潮正多，我一個人快速地如往常般奔走於個大唱片行之間。看著其他衣著入時的都會男女，想像他們的感情世界、想想自己遭遇；人與人擦身而過，霓虹燈亮光灑落他們肩上，欣賞他們與夜晚互相輝映的街景......這是一個私密性高而又不大完美的世界，每個人正孤獨而又忙碌的活著。

晚上九時，我還是不斷地找尋嘻低，尋找專屬於自己的快感。

晚上十時，終於步出最後一家唱片行。兩天沒好睡覺的我早已身心俱疲，皮包也早被掏空，踏著更沈重的腳步回家，這時腦海響起迎接我的還是"Anadrogynous"輕快且低揚的旋律。自己邊哼著邊幻想著邊跳著踢躂舞優美的舞姿，步伐於是慢慢加快起來。不曉得為什麼，心情卻相當好，我似乎愈來愈不寂寞了。

晚上十一時，回到家立刻文思泉湧地把心中想的寫下來。

這種應該叫"充實的空虛"吧？ 我想。